Monday, January 4, 2010

Welcome to 2010!

Holy moly, did we seriously just start a new year? A new decade, even! Wow, what a neat feeling though. It feels like there are new opportunities to find, new adventures to embark on, and new experiences to have and it all feels so exciting. I've never been a huge "celebration" person when it comes to New Years Eve, BUT I certainly appreciate and embrace the significance of it.

This year has started off very interesting for me. Last week, I met up with Tom for the first time since our breakup and it went very very well. We were able to talk about SO much (we literally talked for hours) and it was honestly the most productive conversation we've had even in nearly two years of dating. The talk went so well that he ended up coming back for the weekend and we had even more amazing conversation. I couldn't begin to try and write out all that was said but, the bottom line is, we are both doing great in our lives individually and the lessons we've been learning about ourselves as people has been pretty astounding. He's been on quite the journey in moving back to Maryland and deciding to pursue photography as I have equally been on my own journey, as cited in this here blog. :) At any rate, we are at an interesting place right now and I'm being faced with my first big challenge in being patient, letting go, and trusting that the lord will bring me right where I need to be. I say that because we have a pretty up in the air situation in terms of whether we'd like to get back together or not and now is the time to exercise just what I have been working on: trust.

What I do know to be true, above everything, is that I will be ok and I will continue moving forward as I have been should Tom and I not work out for good. I have worked so hard and become so much of the person I've wanted to be, and that is the biggest and best thing to happen to me in many years. I don't regret an ounce of opening up my heart over the weekend and sharing just what I feel. In fact, doing so without worrying about the outcome is the most terrific feeling, and I hope to hold on to the peace that comes with squashing fearful thoughts. I think Tom and I are both at places where we're sure of what we want and we're focused on what is best for us as individuals, so only time will tell if we can embark on this journey of life together or if it's best suited to really say goodbye.

Above all, I am excited about a new year! I pray for peace and blessing over my life and for wisdom filled direction, always. May 2010 truly be my best year yet!

1 comment:

Tally said...

Yanno, I dunno if you realize it, but people DO read this :)

I'm so glad that you've found a peace in everything that has happened over the last few months. I was heartbroken for you when we came up there because I knew what pain you were dealing with.

I'm very thankful to have found such a great friend, especially when I was not completely comfortable with it in the first place. It has taught me to get to know someone FIRST and most importantly, to let them get to know me! To not think that everything and everyone is an invasion and to realize that the people you least expect to have such an LARGE impact on your life and everyday thoughts, CAN!

I don't know which direction I hope this new journey will take you, but more than anything, I just hope you're healthy, happy, learning, and satisfied. <3